10 Things no one gets about having both anxiety and depression
Anxiety and depression have emotional impact on everyone in a different way. But both have a very similar way of treatment.
Almost half of the people who have depression are also diagnosed with anxiety disorder, which is rising considerably. These two illnesses seem to go hand in hand and their combination leads to some real confusion for the individual.
Anxiety and depression are intensely private. The list below contains the experience of just one person, but it will be assuring to know that you are not the only one to experience the crippling illness.
1 It’s freaking out at the idea of getting anything less than a stellar score on a test, but not having the energy to study
It becomes pretty difficult to deal with studying when you have both depression and anxiety together. It also becomes hard to study when you know you have a big test coming up and you know how important it is for you to study.
But the depression makes it very difficult for you to get up and open the book and start studying for the test. The not studying keeps your anxiety on the rise while the anxiety also deepens the depression since you are not studying and know that you are not going to do well.
2 It’s having to stay in bed because you don’t have the will to move, but unravelling at the thought of what will happen if you miss school or work
Having depression make it hard to even get out of the bed and perform day to day tasks. Even going to the office and/or the school becomes very hard. Your anxiety keeps you aware of the implications of missing school or work.
But the depression makes it hard to get ready for either and you hate yourself for having to do this every day.
3 It’s getting more tightly wound the more mess piles up, but only staring at it and thinking, I’ll clean tomorrow
You never want to keep yourself or your room clean. You know you have to keep things clean and follow a routine, but simply don’t feel like doing it. You only see things piling up and just think that ‘not today, I will do it tomorrow’.
4 It’s making six million to-do lists just to untangle your thoughts, but knowing you’ll never actually cross anything off
You always make a list of things to do to overcome your anxiety and depression. Things that you want to do, that make you happy.
Then you sit to write them down and then anxiety takes over and you fret over things like logistics and doing it alone. This leads to depression and the list remains unchecked.
5 It’s fearing every day that your partner will get fed up and leave, but your anxiety whispering in your ear that they deserve better and should
The combination of anxiety and depression also takes a toll on your relationship. You are anxious that your partner will leave you any day now and they deserve someone better. This thinking leads you to get depressed about the potential of your relationship ending.
6 It’s ignoring texts and turning down invitations, and it’s aching when the texts and invitations stop
Your anxiety keeps you from attending functions and parties. You keep ignoring the invites and when they stop altogether, you become depressed about no one loving you or inviting you.
7 It’s alternating between feeling paralyzed in the present and scared shitless about the future
You want to change the present, but are also afraid of what the future holds. You are depressed about the present and what is happening in it, but the anxiety of what future cripples you further and again you are stuck in middle of nowhere.
8 It’s sitting awake at 3 a.m. worrying about a future you’re not even sure you want to have
You are working at a place where you don’t see a future for yourself, but are stuck because of reasons. You want to pursue something that you love, but are afraid to do so. And that keeps you lying awake in the bed thinking of something you want to have as a future, but are afraid to work for it.
9 It’s needing to do everything, but wanting to do nothing at all
You want to go skydiving, you want to have a dog, you want to quit your job and go wander and explore the planet. But the next moment you don’t want to even get up and shut off the TV. That’s what anxiety and depression does to you.
10 It’s like wanting to do everything or do nothing at the same time
It’s sleeping too much or not at all.
The worst part about having both depression and anxiety is that one keeps you asleep all the time and the other doesn’t let you sleep at all respectively. So you are stuck with unusual sleeping patterns and that affects your health.